Unravelling the Layers
Lately, there has been the bitter sweet happenings in my life. Events that have pushed itself to their limits to the point when enough is enough with the imminent endings so clear to apprehend. Realising that you have tried too hard, so hard, that it begins to hurt. It suffocates you, leaving yourself in endless tears with the festering wounds in your heart.
There is nothing you can do tto comprehend the situation that you are in but to follow the faith and the guts that you have been feeling. When all is no avail, you have let it go and leave it into the hands of the unseen.
Sometimes, some things are meant for you to stop trying. Take a breather, as much as you need to allow yourself to grow stronger then before and be more certain of yourself.
It is about time that I come out of my shell and be more comfortable being in my own skin. I have friends whom own very big dreams, which left me to thinking about myself, about what I want and the things that I want to achieve in life. At first, I feel small and inferior, that I didnt have a dream or that mine was a simple one. Well, I can't help it that mine is different. It is not about chasing the richness of the world neither bringing my skill/potential into a whole new level. A different dream doesn't mean that it is cliche. I dream a different dream. It does not mean that I am simple, neither does it mean that I am complacent.
My dream is to lead a decent life to settle down with the one I truely love. To live life filled with content. Myabe I might not do much great things in my life. But to live it, is great enough.
I know that everything is falling into its rightful places. All we need is patience. Well you have it, while I don't. It is hard, very hard. One minute it is there the next minute it is not. Give me a chance to breathe again to be familiar with myself and my surroundings so that I can know where I am and what I am feeling for you. My love has stretched for quite a while. Give me that chance to miss you once again. If the past is done, wounds are healed and I can breahthe as much as my heart and soul can. I would love you just as much as you love me, with no qualms in my heart. I am free to love you. If it doesnt happen... All I can say is everything will be alright. As sad as it is, we must remind ourselves that we will eventually find our own happiness. And I would love to see that happening to you. Cause even if it is gone, a piece me has gone to you before and I dont intend to take it back. It is not meant to be returned. That means there is still a little love left in there, just for you because you have been apart of me before. Thank you for being my Gurdian Angel.
* 10:42 PM
